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Snoopy isn't well. When I was home, he was much skinnier than before and it was easy to tell that his hind legs were weak; much weaker than before. His lower body was sensitive to the slightest touch and he'd bite himself every now and then. He cries a lot. Just after I left Penang, my sister msged and said Snoopy's condition was worsening. My sister did some research online and says he likely has lumbrosacral stenosis which is common among senior dogs. It is the compression of nerve roots at the end of the spinal chord and affects his bladder also (Snoopy has had problem holding it in sometimes). This disease may lead to lameness.

She brought him to the vet yesterday and the visit came to a close with glucosamin pills and a dog collar to take home so that he won't be able to bite himself. He'll be monitored for two weeks.
She msged me again last night and said that he's miserable with the dog cone around him and he needs care and attention all the time but she's starting work on Wednesday and no one has that much time at home either (no one's at home 24/7). Snoopy has self-inflicted wounds all over his body coz he bites himself, annoyed and confused.

Pray for my dog :( I love him to bits.

I'll be at CatsWhiskers Hartamas effective January... my colleagues are constantly warning me about the manager there and her schemes. I hope I survive.


Last day of the year.

What on earthlah.

I went for an interview with Harper's Bazaar today (I sent a random message two days ago to the fashion stylist, asking her if there were any available positions. One of those things I do to complicate matters - contact someone whom I know will complicate things even further by presenting me with what I want, when I have yet to know what I want for myself). So while I'm knocking myself repeatedly on the head with a YesNoYesNo-DoIDoINot mullet, I casually ask someone who strikes me square with the same questions I don't have answers to (e.g. So you want to be in the publishing field? And so you see yourself...?) . It might be a good thing, it might not help. But I hate it that I waver from..

I want to design. Independently.


So I was sitting there with the fashion stylist and editor of the only fashion magazine that I subscribe to almost every month (because I can afford the RM7 value and I love the layout and not forgetting the way their pages smell. I honestly like the smell of Harper's Bazaar pages! I smell them first thing when I get a copy heheheh). It was a very good interview in a couple of bad ways.

The major downside was the job vacancy itself. They are looking for an intern, someone who will be paid RM30 a day, 5 days a week, working from 9am-6pm. Using my fingers as a calculator, I work out that the intern will earn a grand total of Rm600 a month. The contract is for 3 months, after which the intern usually reports back to college or continues steady slogging in the field of magazine publishing, be it in the same publication or another. Harper's Bazaar has a full team now, and Editor says that there are no vacancies besides for an intern and this will most probably remain so for the next year.

As I am being told this, my smile by now is chemically plastered on my face for the sake of it being there to save myself from looking overly disappointed and Garfield-like. I could join them as intern, learn an awful lot and be part of the team (and as the lowest payed employee too hurrah all good) but then what happens after the 3 months, I don't know. If I do say Yes to them, I will be exhausting myself financially every day for 90 days and might have to settle for bread, water and my leftover Vitamin B iron pills for that extra nourishment.

They also offered that I freelance for them - basically doing what an intern would do/doing what the fashion stylist is too busy to do. But I don't report to work daily, just finish what I'm told to do within a deadline.

... so yes, I am itching to design my own stuff. Going freelance totally. Designing, doing odd jobs for a fashion magazine, coordinating wardrobes for shoots, making lasagna, surfing the Internet, etc. Basically not spending 9 hours of my day at CatsWhiskers for 6 days a week. But that would mean giving up my steady income and consuming iron pills (something my mom can be proud of I guess. She likes it when I eat my vitamins). Freelancing while committing that much time every day to Cats isn't much time at the end of day.

If I choose to continue with CatsWhiskers, it will be more practical $ wise and it's slightly safer than relying on come-and-go projects. But I'm missing my LF, FNS, practices, movies, dinner get-togethers, sturdy legs and Saturdays. Also the Kawan Christmas blessing and Sunday service this 31st.


It's past midnight on a Friday night. Work tomorrow.

Hello hello, every-body... ('making calls, taking calls, on the go, hello hello...' Hahaaa remember that Telekom ad jingle years ago? It's funny and I like it! Something Telekom can be genuinely proud of - that catchy number, which I am having trouble remembering for sure if it's really from a Telekom ad or not heheheh)

I am now typing this in Bayu Puteri, the apartment home of the Quahs (I have become one of their relatives through registering for a resident's card... not baddd! Instant intercepting! Nyeheheh).. I finally am feeling what it's like to live under a roof over my head in Selangor without having a label pasted onto my forehead that reads HOUSEMATE or having the people living in the same place addressed the same way (although now I might be walking around with an 'Intruder' placard instead kekekekek).

A big thanks to Sean I, Huey, Cary and Josh who helped me with the moving and settling in. And to Simon for praying. I give you guys extra Christmas presents heheheheh..

I will be going back home to Penang on the 23rd and coming back Boxing Day. Can't wait to spend this year's Christmas with me family. Already thinking of Chinese New Year.

I've had Soul Action in my thoughts and I miss it.

I'm finally going to give fabric to the tailor to sew the three gowns I'm doing for a friend's friend. The friend who is getting married is living in Denmark and I've been corresponding only through emails and smses.. She's trusting me and giving me a good amount of freedom, I really hope it all goes okay and she doesn't put her wedding on hold if they fit her like a square peg in a round hole. She'll be flying down early February for her photoshoots, the wedding is only mid 2007. In February, she'll only be here for a week, which means a very tight schedule for any alterations and last minute changes to the three gowns.. I think it'll be impossible for any changes to be made besides the sizing of the dresses. No timeee.. Freaking me out. *But if any of you would like baju's to be made....*

My leg is kebas now and I miss Simon like crazy.