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To say nothing, especially when speaking, is half the art of diplomacy.

                                                              Will Durant

You know how humans have always been inspired by animals? Birds - airplanes, whales - submarines, cats - lazyness, bats - sensors, etc. We can always count on being inspired by animals and learning from them. But there's only one out of the entire animal kingdom, which has earned itself a most special and personal title as man's best friend. And this was given to an animal, not even another human. Nevertheless, this four-legged buddy is not short of human-like temperaments and thankfully even more faithful and patient than the ordinary man. 

"I went to live in the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see that I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived... I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practice resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms..." 

It's the last day of the year! Just thought it would be 'exciting' to blog on the eve of yet another 365-day term ahead.

So I can't even tell if this thing is an honest representation of me or if I've been kidding myself all this while, writing things that seem closest to my heart using another language altogether written by My Other Self. It's funny how I don't actually write about what I'm going through in my own blog... well at least not anymore.

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I can't tell if you honestly regard me as a friend you'd want closeby. I can't tell if you have any kind thoughts about me when we don't see each other. I can't even tell if you like me. Can't tell if I actually care about you. I can't tell if I've actually stopped caring altogether and if I'm indifferent about you. I can't tell if I'd actually share my secrets with you and you with me, so I can tell we don't trust each other. But I can tell we're all trying. I can say hey, we do get along and I can tell we won't intentionally hurt each other. I can tell we all have fun. I can tell we look out for each other and that we are generally good people. But that's really not enough when push comes to shove, when one of us needs to give the other the benefit of doubt, when we need to actually love one another. We're all sort of awkwardly put together to become friends, friendly strangers and at this point we're still friends who are pretty much still strangers. We are friengers.

This serves as a personal reminder of the basis of relationships because most of the time, it doesn't matter if things are obviously okay or not when we choose to love anyways.

I'm asking God for one thing,
only one thing:
To live with him in his house
my whole life long.
I'll contemplate his beauty;
I'll study at his feet.

Psalm 27:4